This is the first post in an ongoing Life Blog written for MindPath Care Centers. I have wanted to do this for a very long time, but just never knew where or when to begin. After much internal struggle and some procrastination, I decided the easiest way to begin…was…to begin. You may be asking yourself why you should read this post or any subsequent post, and all I can tell you is this. I am no Psychiatrist, Psychologist or Therapist; what I am is a person, like many of you, who suffers from severe depression, with a side order of Bipolar. My hope, for anyone reading this, is perhaps a laugh, maybe a cry, but most importantly for you to know there are others out there, just like you, and even when you think there is no one in the entire World who understands, someone does.
Get your pen and notebook ready:
Life Lesson Number 1: All we truly want out of life is to be understood, for someone to understand us, even for just one moment, and in that moment someone understands us, we are truly connected.
Those little “Life Lessons” might pop up here and there throughout future posts, or may never show up again.
So, the title of this first post, “Nintendo and Transformers Saved My Life” – I felt it was a very fitting title, and you may think I’m exaggerating, but I assure you, I am not. Both of these things quite literally saved my life on numerous occasions. I was bullied daily when I was a child; it felt constant, all day, at School, by kids who thought it hilarious to make my life a living hell. This was a different time: there were no anti-bullying campaigns or ads on TV – hell, I suffered just as much bullying from various teachers than I did the other children. I learned rather quickly that during this time, you didn’t tell an adult or your parents, because if you did it would come back double on me, so I kept it all in, deep inside, eating away at me, sometimes swallowing me whole. I’m thankful there was no Social Media, or it would have probably been even worse. I’m also thankful that this trend is getting the attention it deserves. No one should have to live a single day, hour or minute feeling the way I did on a daily basis.
When I came home from school, I would immediately hide myself from the World. I would either turn on the Nintendo Entertainment System (yes, I’m old) and lose myself in Final Fantasy or some other RPG (role playing game), or I would put on Transformers. Everyone needs an escape. The goal is to make sure it is a healthy escape and doesn’t end up being detrimental to your mental health. That is probably one of those Life Lessons we discussed earlier, but I’ll leave it be for now. Whenever the World pushed me over the edge and I felt there was no possible way I could go on, I watched Transformers and learned from Optimus Prime. At a time in my life where nothing made sense to me, Prime did, and I learned more from him than I could write in a book.
So when you feel the World pushing you, digging at you, and you’re on that edge, find your escape. Whether it’s music, cooking, photography, working out, video games, or whatever, find your escape and never apologize for loving it. People occasionally look at the Autobot and Decepticon logo tattoos on my wrists and scoff at me, yet they have no idea that these are constant reminders that I permanently placed on myself to know I survived. I’m still alive because I found my escape. Find yours.